Half a Step Over

Why Fear

I am a woman, with a mind of her own.

I live on the East Coast.

I would be considered by many to be a liberal—probably socially liberal but with some fiscally conservative overtones (and no, not a believer in the Tea Party).

I am a Jew.

I started writing this almost a week after the capture of the Boston Marathon bomber (no, you can’t say I’m quick with some things).  I can tell you that after listening to everything I said the younger brother was pushed into following the older brother. That doesn’t excuse it; he was old enough to know better, and he can rot in jail for the rest of his life. It merely helps to explain things, at least for me.

But that’s separate from what I was going to say here—although related. I also watched with fascination as everyone just started screaming that it was one group or another, or should I say one person who could be categorized as belonging to a group that people feared. I found it fascinating that Donald Trump (and this was well before he decided to run for office) was asked what should happen and he said the guy should be waterboarded. A senator instantly announced that the bombers should be labeled as “enemy combatants” so that numerous Constitutional guarantees could be ignored. And at the hearings (there are always hearings, which go no place and should never even happen since they resolve nothing), they wanted to know why someone who was picked up and then proved uninvolved hadn’t been put on a watch list. (Actually, I think there are several senators who probably shoul be on watch lists; we can figure out why later.) After all, he doesn’t believe we have any rights; only he, and those who agree with him, has those.

What are we so afraid of? And why do we have to put everyone in a “group.” Can I remind you that Timothy McVeigh, and Adam Lanza, and the guy who shot up the movie theater in Colorado were all white? By the way, I worked for a Muslim (he was not all that observant but he was definitely up on everything he should have been doing to be observant); he was devastated by what happened on September 11, and could quote the Koran on why it was wrong. He was a terrible boss, something a lot of people would agree with, but in no way was he a radical Muslim. Another man in the firm had converted to Islam; he was sick about what happened. Neither of them would ever be considered "radicals." There are far more Muslims out there who hate the jihadists, and are not radical people. They just happen to be Muslims.

Then there was the shooting at Planned Parenthood in Colorado Springs. Yes, the shooter, who surrendered to police, had a lot of problems. In fact, since his problems were mainly mental, can anyone explain to me why he had a gun permit--or if not, how he got the guns? He sounded totally rational when arrested, but was talking about “baby parts.” I’ve often found it strange that it’s all right to shoot people in a clinic where abortions might be performed because you think they’re wrong, but the people in the clinics aren’t allowed to exercise their choices, which are apparently subordinate to the shooter’s—and can we remind the shooter that if they kill someone there for medical reasons aren’t they also then killing the baby? How is that murder justified? I’ve read statistics showing how many people feel that abortion is a horrific wrong, but executing someone after the legal process has condemned him is totally fine. In fact, they think more executions should be happening. Isn’t there some kind of reasoning adjustment needed somewhere? (And by the way, I have consciously decided not to talk about San Bernardino here; it's just too much,)

And that applies to a lot of other people. So some people look different and dress in a way different from you; it doesn’t mean they’re out to get you. Maybe they’re just terrified that you might hurt them simply because of their looks. And let’s throw in comments on guns as well. I know people who own guns—none of them as advanced as I’ve been told we need. I think it’s fine that they have them. I don’t want them taken away without good cause. But let me ask you: What’s the matter with a background check? You’re right, criminals don’t have them. But maybe if the guy who buys a gun to sell to a criminal has to have a background check, it will make them a little harder to get. I read that in Australia, once they insisted on more background checks, crime actually dropped. Who here would have thought that?

So let’s return to the part where I said I am a Jew--and a woman. What bothers so many people about that? I haven’t asked you to convert. I've been told I'm not wanted in my town if I think my children should date Jews, That came from a woman who objected to her Catholic son dating a Protestant It was a little mind-boggling. So, don’t look down on me and mine if our belief system is different from yours. Don’t tell me you need to go in the back door of the synagogue so your non-Jewish friends won’t know that you have a Jewish friend (and yes, I know someone who did that; her priest thought that was just silly, but her mother was terrified someone would know). And don’t act like I’m stupid because I don’t see Jesus as a messiah—may I remind you that he was ours before he was yours?

As a woman I am entitled to my own thoughts. I don't need my husband to tell me how to vote, or what to do. In fact he would tell you he's fine with me having my own opinions, which don't always agree with his. Yes, I live on the East Coast and definitely in what would be considered a "liberal" area. But I also believe we need to hold common ground with people who think differently. Finding a way to work with all kinds of people can only help us all in the long run. Fear of others based on different beliefs can only breed contempt, and nothing will get done to suit everyone.

I’m done venting now and no, I'm really not out to get anyone. My friends come from diverse groups and religions--and there are some in mine with whom I radically disagree. I have just been thinking about how tiring it has to be to hold so much animus against so many people. And I will not hang my head in shame that I said any of this. I let you live with your beliefs and opinions, even if I think you’re completely wrong. In this country, we have the right of free speech and to have other opinions. I'll always stand up for your right to that, even if I think you're out of your mind. Like the second amendment, that's protected too.